January 2012
1 post
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you know when all your problems build up and it gets to the point where you’re stressing about how much you have to do that you so much that you can’t even summon the strength to get up from the couch/bed? that’s me now.
1) i should be filling in house applications.
2) i should be cleaning the house for money (as i am broke).
3) i should be cleaning my room, it’s a...
December 2011
7 posts
one of those days where everything is shit. and the only thing i could think of that could feel right to be, is in his arms.
the first person you love with always be with you i think. even if you dont end up with them - as gay as it sounds- they will forever be somewhere in your heart.
its so shit to see someone you love to much in so much pain. life is so unjust sometimes, it’s this kind of shit that makes me think theres no way there could be a god. surely he wouldnt let this happen.
Pre- new years revolution.
i am going to be a size 10 by new years day.
November 2011
3 posts
Anxious attachment.
And there is it. Hit me fucking hard. It’s been coming for ages but only now have i realised the extent to which i am up shit creek. I have become completely emotionally indipendent on another person. He has exams and has to study but everytime he tries to leave me to go home I cry to make him stay cos i hate the thought of being without him. yep, that much. I am compromising his future...
October 2011
6 posts
stammo.
so i went out with these people from work to the local pub. it was rockin. awesome mix of new music and band who were playing awesome 80s/90s/now stufff. but everyone just thought it was a shit pub. apparently having the sporty as my local makes everything else just seem awesome. haha. oh well i had fun :)
i dont know whats happeneing to me. i cant control what im feeling and im pushing away the person who is supporting me the most. im going to loose everything.
so im talking to tom on the phone, and honestly, im being pretty bitchy. im stressed about my exam and not in a good mood so im taking it out on him. he didnt even bite, he just took it cos he guessed that was the reason. …. this is on top of a month without seeing me happy once and having to deal with a lot of my shit.
i have a pretty good boyfriend really.
Here’s the thing. My body is stupid and fucked and ruining my Fucking life. Why does something always have to be wrong with it? I want a normal Fucking summer.
September 2011
9 posts
7 tags
it hurts so much
A lot of things have changed this year. I’m not sure if anything has stung this much.
10 tags
I DONT WANT TO WRITE MY ESSAY
but myeh.
4 tags
RENEGADE
iwannastartariott:
this was HILARIOUS. misfits= new addiction
So far after putting up that photo:
monday; played netball
tuesday; played netball
wednesday; did 2 laps of oval, 100 sit-ups, pushups and planking, then did sprint/jog intervals up and down my street
today (thursday); i am going to run to watch the hawthorn training and home (about 3 or 4 k’s each way)
pretty happy with my efforts so far, my abs hurt like a mother f****er…...
6 tags
well here we are, it’s spring!! the season that is starts getting warm as a gentle reminder that in 3 months it will be summer. and hence… bakini season (kudos for all the warning spring) my spring challange, is to look good in these shorts by summer. i have put up this rather unflattering photo as motivation and will put up a photo in the shorts very monday and hope that by december...
August 2011
4 posts
more going on about thomas :)
i have the best boyfriend in the world. today he missed uni and came to see me so he could go to the doctors with me cos i had to get injections and other horrid things. and he held my hand and gave me kisses to make me feel a bit better. thomas is so amzing and love him so much xxxx
and when you think about it. the world is just a bloody spectrum of dust compared to everything anyway. why should anything that happens wiithin it make a difference to anything. are humans really that insignificant?
although it is making me exhausted and stopping me from sleeping…
lots of moral and ethical debates going on in my head. its funnny being brought up hearing and believing only one thing and then questioning all of it when being so exposed to the exact opposite. questioning things is good to do though i think. and even though some people think i put way too much thought into things, i dont think thats a bad thing…
July 2011
10 posts
can't wait!!!
It’s me and Tom’s 1 year on monday and we’ve booked a gorgeous little cottage and are having dinner at a fancy restraunt with pretty veiws and the restraunt is taking us there and back in a free limo!!!!!!!!!
I’M SO EXCITED
feeling good!
1/3 way through my essay… eating good and have gone for 2 runs and played netball this week :)
lessons i learnt in the last 2 days
1) lying achieves nothing.
2) avoiding telling the truth is bad - no matter much much intention you have of telling the person.. do it ASAP
3) two evils can sometimes cancell eachother out… kind of
4) you can never stop learning more about a person - no matter how much you think you know
and my favorite…
5) there’s some friends that will always be there when you need, no...
I SEE THOMAS IN 22 HOURS AND 31 MINUTES. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
I’m a lucky girl.
I'm not having a go at anyone, i swear... i just...
From: Australian Council on Smoking and Health
Each year more than 18,000 Australians die prematurely because of smoking - that’s 50 a day.
Smoking kills more people in Australia than the total number killed by drink, drugs, murder, suicide, road crashes, rail crashes, air crashes, poisoning, drowning, fires, falls, lightning, electrocution, snakes, spiders and sharks.
Of 1,000 young...
need to get this off my chest.
so, tom has been on holidays for two weeks, and as if missing the crap out of hiim wasnt enough, this fortnight has bought with it;
the worst migraine of my life - which had me spewing all day.
the worst period pain of my life.
my parents re-lapsing into their old fighting ways- which i cannot deal with
my period coming late (which even when you know you’re carefull and theres no way you...
a shitty couple of weeks.
Waiting for the dentist. So nervous I feel like im going to throw up. Pretty sure the dentist is the worst thing ever!!!!!
June 2011
14 posts
'The c word'
I really don’t like ‘the c word’. I understand that swear words are really just meaningless paradigms society has made but even when I try to think of it as just another word I don’t like it. I don’t give a rats about its literal meaning, but.for some reason those four letters put together really offend me. And I hate how common its getting. It’s all over...
bored. dont want to be doing study.
Today, I tried to get Thomas to do zumba. He was not impressed. So i did zumba. it was fun!
can someone tell me how i can write on someones post??? like comment?
sitting down and focing myself to study. i feel like my plans for the day have aready been screwed seeing as a ate cheerios for breckfast when i said i was going to have weetbix!need to take vegas for a walk at some point… but its so bloody cold!!!
opps
the awkward moment when you leave tumblr open and your boyfriend reads all the things you’ve been saying about him… opps
im experiencing pre-exams depression. just want them to be over please. now. if anyone wants to donate to the “help mel drop and of uni and travel euope instead” fund, let me know!
you know how sometimes there’s a particular song or album that suits your mood exactly and you can totally relate to?
this is so not the case with my new fav song/artist/album.
haha. its all depressing songs about breaking up and being sad missing the boy… Adele obviously got her heart broken. i love her voice though and the songs sound so nice!!!!
im going back to gul tonight which...
the L word (not lesbian - the other one)
I just realised this is going to beome somewhat of a diary for me, if the blogs look long and uninteresting they probably are haha. Just containing bits of my life which arent that relevent to anything but i just want to write down cos its on my mind…
on that note…
Today was me and Tom’s 10 months. We went shopping and he got me a new jumper for uni! What a cutie!! I love him...